The Deepest Truth

The Deepest Truth

The above image is from a dream I had the Lyremer was also in this dream playing a Lyre and singing Hallelujah from the movie Shrek.  “Maybe there’s a God above and all I’ve ever learned from love is how to shoot at someone who outdrew you…and it’s not a cry you can hear at night, it’s not somebody who’s seen the light it’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah.”  I woke up haunted by the weight of those words and feeling Soul level beaten and bruised from the force of the waters of creation. I still feel the temptation to disconnect from my heart in those heavy moments, but I have learned there is sacredness in all feelings, and it’s true what you resist really does persist. It’s best to allow sad to do what sad needs to do…

The morning of this dream my higher Self hung around to ensure I received the mermaid and the pearl’s powerful message from Spirit.  This place I had encountered was in the depths of the human Soul…there she was a mermaid floating lifeless at the bottom of the sea, hovering over and shielding a blue pearl. The deepest Truth I discovered on this dive was that the Divine Feminine had yet to be resurrected within myself.  There is a lot of symbolism in both the mermaid and the pearl. For me the pearl is significant in that my name, Maggie means pearl. So I knew instantly that she was guiding me in the direction Source was calling me to go. Maya the owl in my “waking” life was imparting the same wisdom.

 Everywhere I looked I saw this imbalance of the Divine Feminine.  I was surprised and believed that I was balanced in my energy so where was this coming from? I didn’t need to look too far back into history…as the Disney movies spell it out clearly enough.  Powerful woman are betrayed as evil. What are we putting into our kids heads?  In the movie the Little Mermaid Ursula is the protagonist and steals Ariel’s voice in exchange for her legs. Ariel had fallen in love with Prince Eric and longed to be united with him in the human world. As the scenes came back from the movie the sober realization that I too have had my voice silenced for many lifetimes was loud and clear. Expressing the voice of our Soul is crucial as we create our Lives within a vibrational Universe…

 Maya the owl had also led me to the story of Lilith Adam’s first wife, there seems to be a lot of sacred mystery to dig up there.   It’s a story that has been growing more powerful and it comes from the core of the human bleeding heart.   The same story of victimization, judgement denial and suffering is surfacing now more powerfully as it needs to be released as it is an expression of the Soul’s cry. A year ago on the Spiritual Personality blog I wrote “The Caederwithin helps us to see the manipulative shadow entity within our minds, this is the dark force that we all reckon with everyday. I’m grateful that I have developed the piercing vision of the Caeder to see and hear that what lies buried in the depths of the dark and ugly is a hallowed cry longing to be acknowledged, deeply desiring to be seen and heard in order to be healed. I don’t heal though…The Caeder within has shown me that my role is to hold the vision and intention in my heart and that opens the space for Source’s healing energy to flow through. This bittersweet contrast we experience in our life is where the beauty is hidden and there is something incredibly rejuvenating and deeply exhilarating and “real” when we can experience this ecstatic beauty exploding out from the depths of our heart that contains our greatest joy and our deepest wounds. Bringing freedom and true power into our lives possibly for the first time in a very, very long time.”

These tears that have been shed for thousands of years and the pain and suffering are the most Powerful sound/force on our planet today.  As we shift in our consciousness we realize more deeply how we are creating our life with fear. How sick and insane we really are…and it’s easy to judge the sleepwalkers and say that they have forgotten the language of their Soul’s, but there is a muffled voice in all of us lying in the depths of the collective unconscious.  We are ONE and many of us are so attached to our ego level identities, and we perceive ourselves to be awakened and very "spiritual" as a very clever way to bypass that sacred dive into those deep waters. As a result we haven’t yet learned how to fully Live and love ourselves in order to love another.

Each person on earth embodies the very darkness that our Soul’s have been desperately trying to bring the light too.  Death and darkness, the unknown change is still so challenging for us to fully embrace.  This fear of the unknown sticks to us in the form of guilt, and denial, keeping us bound to the earth walking like the dead with heavy clay feet.  We as Spiritual Beings are also responsible for raising our own dead and reuniting the fragmented pieces of our Self.

Death and Guilt seem to walk hand in hand and I have recently realized this temptation  I feel to disconnect from my emotions, my heart or inner child is my ego’s attempt to move me off the mark which is what the word “sin” simply means…My mark is remaining centred in my Being, a space that is not influenced by the outside world, it is my Truth in any given moment and an entry point through the breath and into the depth of a much deeper and expansive understanding of who I am and how I am interpreting my life.  This centre point or core is my Being and it is here that I have met the vigilant watcher of my mind.

My Vigilant Watcher

It is through these eyes that I am able to see the illusion for what it is and walk confidently in a world that is changing so very, very quickly…

Flying!!

Photograph by: David Gignac / Special to The Star, The Windsor Star

Recently a Great Grey Owl made a very long journey from up north to my neck of the woods in Southern Ontario. Leaving me to wonder why had this majestic creature blessed us with its presence? It certainly had cast a deeply enchanting magical spell on everyone including myself…

The first time I stopped to catch a glimpse of this bird, I was swept away with the excitement and energy as the power of this creature was intoxicating. I thanked it from the deep and still silence of my soul for making that long journey here. In my root chakra I could feel the struggle for survival that this bird had endured. I then started watching the people squealing with delight as it swooped and showed off flying from tree to tree.  “Oh My God! I’ve been waiting all my life to see this!” one woman shrieked. I could see this complete stranger’s soul in that moment so free flying with the owl as her feet danced on the ground below her. It literally took my breath away as I stood in this very magical world in awe and wonder of this bird’s fearlessness.

As I connected with the owl she spoke to the darkness in me, as she represents death, surrendering and letting go of the old and allowing room for the new.  I could feel with each flap of her wings how she brings forth wisdom out of intuition the power of her energy spoke so clearly to me and in that moment I understood with all levels of my being how she sees in the dark.   As I looked around at all the people in the crowd I wondered can they hear her message of death and resurrection. Can they hear the sacredness of what her energy is emanating? Do they realize that this just may be what has attracted them to her in the first place?

She swooped again and in the silence of my heart she whispered “Follow me!”  With my inner vision I could see my soul smile at her and I said “Yes! Yes! I will follow you Gaia and I will learn your ways and I will stay in tune to this beautiful planet and all of nature.” She stopped flying and landed in front of me and with her piercing vision she looked right into and through the eyes of my soul and said “My name is not Gaia, my name is Maya.” I watched my soul shape shift into my inner child and in that moment my physical body felt an eerie familiar shudder. I was scared to death and I felt so cold standing there as my bones were shivering, echoing, releasing a very deep story that I couldn’t hear beyond the pain of my loneliness…

With my inner vision I watched my inner child look into Maya’s eyes and say “Maya! As in illusion? You know Maya that whole 2012 thing is filled with so much sacred mystery and I don’t really understand it, all I know is it is causing so much fear in this world.  Maybe I shouldn’t follow you, as beautiful and powerful as you are, I honestly feel confused and very distrustful of you in this moment.”

As I tuned deeper into myself I could feel my solar plexus sinking into my root chakra…and it was ego level curiosity holding my mind together in that time and space reality.  What is going on here echoed in my very sober thoughts…All these powerful energies were within me above me below me and beside me creating such deep tension within that was surfacing as an extremely strong temptation to stray from my path, to throw caution to the wind and ignore my inner child. I allowed the chaos to do its job as my own Soul and body were clearly communicating to me that once again I had entered into the blackening phase in Alchemy, this is the first stage of the Great Work. As I realized that the wisdom of my own Soul emanated my own familiar waves of peace that enveloped me and quieted my mind.

As I gained my spiritual wits back I said “NO!” I know better then to stray from my path when I am in fear. For this is the only path I can navigate now with all its gods and demons and dark and enchanting forests, I know very well the torrential storms that stir up cesspools of poisonous waters that miraculously turn into my baptismal waters, and not to mention the bottomless pits and caves of despair, governed by trolls and dragons, angels and fairies. This path is the one that has cut and moulded and continues to shape my own Soul. My own path the same one that has comforted and fed me from the very essence of that which I am and have been for all of eternity, as my Soul has grown and realized myself to be the Spiritual Being that I am in this present moment right here, right now!

I continued to stand in the stillness and silence of my heart and watched my inner child speak to Maya with such honesty and sweet innocence. “I’m sorry Maya but my path is under my physical feet. I don’t know how to fly and I think it is best if I just admire your majestic presence from down here.”  She then swooped down closer to me turned her head and once again looked deeply into and through the eyes of my Soul.  I felt her poignant and powerful blessings of protection, wisdom, strength and courage. I thanked her and could physically feel gratitude pouring out of all levels of my Being like a divine hug warming my shivering bones as I fully accepted Maya’s embrace.

The reverberations of that experience stirred the very deep waters of my unconscious. I went  back to visit her almost every day as we were keeping a close eye on each other. She taught me so much about my gift of mysticism, sacred mysteries and the spiritual power and destructive potential that is contained within the power of ancient prophecies. I’m now inspired to share the wisdom and insights I have gained from remaining true to myself. With so many powerful and “new” energies here supporting us in expanding our consciousness it’s an easy time for the human Soul to get lost. Had I not ventured down the Spiritual Personality path and remained committed to the hard work that is involved in integrating and balancing the human and divine, my recent spiritual awakening could have easily crystallized into spiritual paralysis. I could have gotten stuck and became to afraid to grow any further…Fortunately I have learned to fly and this little Caeder has her wings, and the view of the world from up here is absolutely breathtaking!