Showing posts with label courage. Show all posts
Showing posts with label courage. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Flying!!

Here are a bunch of the photos i promised you, I hope that they help portray a sense of this majestic bird to your readers!!!!!
Photograph by: David Gignac / Special to The Star, The Windsor Star
Recently a Great Grey Owl made a very long journey from up north to my neck of the woods in Southern Ontario. Leaving me to wonder why had this majestic creature blessed us with its presence? It certainly had cast a deeply enchanting magical spell on everyone including myself…
The first time I stopped to catch a glimpse of this bird, I was swept away with the excitement and energy as the power of this creature was intoxicating. I thanked it from the deep and still silence of my soul for making that long journey here. In my root chakra I could feel the struggle for survival that this bird had endured. I then started watching the people squealing with delight as it swooped and showed off flying from tree to tree.  “Oh My God! I’ve been waiting all my life to see this!” one woman shrieked. I could see this complete stranger’s soul in that moment so free flying with the owl as her feet danced on the ground below her. It literally took my breath away as I stood in this very magical world in awe and wonder of this bird’s fearlessness.
As I connected with the owl she spoke to the darkness in me, as she represents death, surrendering and letting go of the old and allowing room for the new.  I could feel with each flap of her wings how she brings forth wisdom out of intuition the power of her energy spoke so clearly to me and in that moment I understood with all levels of my being how she sees in the dark.   As I looked around at all the people in the crowd I wondered can they hear her message of death and resurrection. Can they hear the sacredness of what her energy is emanating? Do they realize that this just may be what has attracted them to her in the first place?
She swooped again and in the silence of my heart she whispered “Follow me!”  With my inner vision I could see my soul smile at her and I said “Yes! Yes! I will follow you Gaia and I will learn your ways and I will stay in tune to this beautiful planet and all of nature.” She stopped flying and landed in front of me and with her piercing vision she looked right into and through the eyes of my soul and said “My name is not Gaia, my name is Maya.” I watched my soul shape shift into my inner child and in that moment my physical body felt an eerie familiar shudder. I was scared to death and I felt so cold standing there as my bones were shivering, echoing, releasing a very deep story that I couldn’t hear beyond the pain of my loneliness…
With my inner vision I watched my inner child look into Maya’s eyes and say “Maya! As in illusion? You know Maya that whole 2012 thing is filled with so much sacred mystery and I don’t really understand it, all I know is it is causing so much fear in this world.  Maybe I shouldn’t follow you, as beautiful and powerful as you are, I honestly feel confused and very distrustful of you in this moment.”
As I tuned deeper into myself I could feel my solar plexus sinking into my root chakra…and it was ego level curiosity holding my mind together in that time and space reality.  What is going on here echoed in my very sober thoughts…All these powerful energies were within me above me below me and beside me creating such deep tension within that was surfacing as an extremely strong temptation to stray from my path, to throw caution to the wind and ignore my inner child. I allowed the chaos to do its job as my own Soul and body were clearly communicating to me that once again I had entered into the blackening phase in Alchemy, this is the first stage of the Great Work. As I realized that the wisdom of my own Soul emanated my own familiar waves of peace that enveloped me and quieted my mind.
As I gained my spiritual wits back I said “NO!” I know better then to stray from my path when I am in fear. For this is the only path I can navigate now with all its gods and demons and dark and enchanting forests, I know very well the torrential storms that stir up cesspools of poisonous waters that miraculously turn into my baptismal waters, and not to mention the bottomless pits and caves of despair, governed by trolls and dragons, angels and fairies. This path is the one that has cut and moulded and continues to shape my own Soul. My own path the same one that has comforted and fed me from the very essence of that which I am and have been for all of eternity, as my Soul has grown and realized myself to be the Spiritual Being that I am in this present moment right here, right now!
I continued to stand in the stillness and silence of my heart and watched my inner child speak to Maya with such honesty and sweet innocence. “I’m sorry Maya but my path is under my physical feet. I don’t know how to fly and I think it is best if I just admire your majestic presence from down here.”  She then swooped down closer to me turned her head and once again looked deeply into and through the eyes of my Soul.  I felt her poignant and powerful blessings of protection, wisdom, strength and courage. I thanked her and could physically feel gratitude pouring out of all levels of my Being like a divine hug warming my shivering bones as I fully accepted Maya’s embrace.
The reverberations of that experience stirred the very deep waters of my unconscious. I went  back to visit her almost every day as we were keeping a close eye on each other. She taught me so much about my gift of mysticism, sacred mysteries and the spiritual power and destructive potential that is contained within the power of ancient prophecies. I’m now inspired to share the wisdom and insights I have gained from remaining true to myself. With so many powerful and “new” energies here supporting us in expanding our consciousness it’s an easy time for the human Soul to get lost. Had I not ventured down the Spiritual Personality path and remained committed to the hard work that is involved in integrating and balancing the human and divine, my recent spiritual awakening could have easily crystallized into spiritual paralysis. I could have gotten stuck and became to afraid to grow any further…Fortunately I have learned to fly and this little Caeder has her wings, and the view of the world from up here is absolutely breathtaking!   

 

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Letting Go...

There are so many things we hold onto in our life that keeps us firmly planted in the illusion of our separation. We often hold onto our careers and relationships out of fear. All the while our Soul is calling to us to move on as we cling to the familiar with everything we have. We can not see what is driving us to move forward in our life and what is on the other side of our obstacles. We stand on a daily basis with our hands clenched, our mind closed and our hearts guarded. Waiting on the defensive and often oblivious to how much energy we are using to be on guard....
Until one day we start to wake up and begin to wonder why we are so exhausted, angry and confused. We begin to peer deeply into the depths of our own heart and realize that we have deeply misunderstood what love is...It is at those moments when our consciousness expands that our whole world often seems to resist our new level of awareness and profound insights...this is not a dark night of the Soul rather it is the light of our own Soul beginning to shine so brightly that we now see the shadows on the walls of our own life. The contrast and choices of what we want and don't want become clearer...and from my own experience when we gain our clarity in the midst of challenges peace quickly flows into the heart calming the anger, and healing our wounds. Our fears never fully dissipate though, they serve the purpose of opening up the door for courage to walk in and take our hand to walk with us confidently into the unknown as that seems to be the direction that the Universe is always calling us to go...We can't grab onto the hand of courage with our fists clenched we have to be willing to let go of everything we have been clinging to stubbornly and tightly out of fear...



Friday, June 3, 2011

Spiritual Backbone...

Most of my artwork forms on my paper effortlessly, but other images like the one above seem to haunt me. Repetitively showing up in my inner vision, begging for my attention. I know that when this happens it's important to pay attention to my inner dialogue and musings. As I am being given profound answers to my Soul questions that I have held onto sometimes for many years if not lifetimes...These Spiritual images I see in my spiritual imagination are so profound and they seem to weigh more leaving a deeper emotional imprint on me then the visual stimuli coming at me from my external world.
I use to worry that I was crazy and now that I have accepted myself...I've realized that there is nothing wrong with my visions or thinking I am just a peaceful and powerful Creative Being! I also have taken the pressure off of myself because I know now that Source waits patiently for me to express the essence of  my "in-sight" and to contemplate deeply on the message that Spirit is bringing to my attention. I am the one that becomes impatient with my illusory inability to express the essence of who I am...
A while back I journeyed with the Spiritual Personality typing system, and had the opportunity to meet up with 12 aspects within my own personality that lead me to discover deeper and higher spiritual truths.
                                                
With each SP blog entry I had the opportunity to tune into my own Intuitive Voice which is a silent voice that seems to originate between the space between my thoughts and I feel the energy of this voice in my heart as being the truth for me in any moment. It is sometimes so hard to hear though...I have no one to blame for this as I'm the one being too busy whining, crying and often temper tantrumming I forget to breathe properly and let go of my thoughts in order to discern the voice of my soul...There is a beauty to my inner life that is so vibrant and powerful and I believe this is the space where I can tap into the raw energy of my creativity that feeds and fuels everything in my life. We all are apart of this powerful energy and I now understand this to be the backbone to my Soul...I still resist at times God/Source's unconditional love but I find humour now in my ego's moments of self righteousness and unwillingness to surrender and get out of the way...Trusting in the process of life and allowing things to unfold is so hard for me to do...and yet somehow I keep doing just that, through attracting the most amazing people, and things like Spiritual Personality into my life that inspires me to dig deeply into my own heart, mind and soul and to trust what is there...

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Spring Cleaning...

I spent the entire day yesterday spring cleaning, shredding papers, and purging literally thousands of snippets of inspiration that did not make it into full fruition...I am an artist and writer and to make it even more complicated I am a student and teacher of the process of creativity, not just on the paper but how that translates into our everyday lives. What I realized is that being a creative being is a messy process...life is messy and that's okay. I'm celebrating this weekend that I can actually now get just as much enjoyment out of cleaning up as I do in making the mess. I have another Intuitive Whispers blog that I am laying to rest...I wish I could shred that too, and transform it into handmade paper for my artwork as that is the plan for the all the shredding I did yesterday. Instead I'm closing that account and moving here to this space, and my intentions are to discipline myself to undertake the daily ritual of honoring “time” in order to extract the nugget of gold or kernel of deep spiritual Truth in each of my creations and experiences.

I feel that I have been working at overcoming a whole lot of fear around expressing myself in this format for a while now...It's one thing to admit my craziness and inner chaos to myself, why the heck do I want to be sharing it with the rest of the world? I feel there is some truth in that the world wants to know whats going on deep inside of me just like I have a sincere desire to know what is going on inside other people.


I'm tired of the ego-level power plays and games. IMHO the world is being given an opportunity to grow up and humanity is still holding onto it's temper tantrumming toddler hood as we have not learned yet to Trust...We haven't learned to trust ourselves and the process of life itself. I'm not all doom and gloom though. I also see that a lot of people have progressed through this stage and have found a deep sense of peace and joy in their lives. If you made your way to this blog, I trust you are ready to experience life from a deeper perspective...and celebrate the fact that we can grow so deeply by being firmly grounded to the earth while touching eternity. I love this video Oriah Mountain Dreamer and John Mayer...and encourage you to read Oriah's words with your whole Being...Invite yourself to start trusting the wisdom of your own Soul to Say what you need to say! I welcome feedback...all kinds of feedback! I am a real person that likes to hear if I have touched you and I am longing to know your perspective on this whole human experience too...