Secrets of the Heart

Sometimes I’m eager to sit at my computer and face the blank page…other days not so much and I can find a million excuses to keep me from tuning into my Intuitive Voice. My soul loves to play in the vast space of nothingness where all things are created and I have many pages to write, in an attempt to clearly define who I am choosing to be. In order to do this though I have to take a deep breath and delve into some obscure spaces of my heart. Seeking my own truth on what I really believe. As I explore my inner reality I’m uncovering my secrets and I realize that I have been holding onto these silently in my heart. I believe we all have secrets in the form of hopes, dreams and wishes that were never realized. I don’t know a lot of adults who freely risk being vulnerable by sharing the secret desires of their heart openly.   Children do though and at one time the innocent Divine Child within ourselves whispered freely our hearts desire into the ear of God. I believe God has been holding onto the perfection of that desire ever since. As we align with our purpose in life I feel the Universe is calling us to remember the deeper mystery of what we whispered.
This remembering business is often easier said than done though and it’s easy to find distractions in everyday life. I’m often knocked of my alignment; and I have a hard time finding my car keys let alone the Truth of what I really believe! Some days I am so in touch with “Reality” that those things like wonder, joy, hopes, dreams, and the secrets of my heart belong in story books and in the lyrics of Taylor Swift’s music. Between taking care of the kids, house, marriage, running a business, working and cleaning up dog barf who has time for their soul? More and more lately I can catch the harsh tones of my ego trying to convince myself that this spiritual stuff is just an idealistic fairy tale. I really do get frustrated, but then a moment happens, a fully present moment that I am so grateful for. I slip not away into the land of daydreams. No, I fall into me, my Self right into the centre of my Being. Through taking a moment to focus on my breath and tune into how I am feeling. I somehow tap into this incredible peace that is almost palpable. It feels like an angel is present and their energy fills the room. Briefly I’m immune and no longer attached to the negativity that I was just aimlessly swirling around in. My breathing and footsteps feel more purposeful, my heart peaceful and my mind clear enough to really connect to Source. I then hear the Truth with a capital T and can see the world through the eyes of my Soul. I’m slowly learning that I can’t stay in that heart space of anger and frustration for very long. I am starting to trust my Soul more to lead, nurture and support me on this human journey and the language that Soul uses to communicate to me is the language of my feelings…who knew one could grow so deeply by being firmly grounded to the earth while touching eternity.